I was walking down a hill side path. I saw another woman going up the way I had come in a truck with a pop-up trailer in tow. She had her head in a scarf like the Chabad Jewish women wear.
I was walk back to a place I had been before. I passed a road and looked down it and could see very far but it wasn't the road I was looking for.
I came into an area that seemed to have connected buildings, single story. There were lots of trees outside. I began to see big signs saying; “THE END”, “THIS IS THE END”,“FINISHED”. There were lots of these signs plastered on the walls. Somehow as I walked along this building I came inside without turning there was a wall with the words. THE END, then a picture of a butt, then another picture with a butt with a tail on it. I have to say, even in the dream I thought this was weird. Then I came into a room, it was a dead end. I knew I didn't want to be in there so I immediately turned to leave. It seemed as though I was now flying or moving out without walking. I passed by a man who seemed to be mesmerized by something on the t.v. or something he was watching. I went past him and came to a door. At first I couldn't open the door and then was able to and was out into the open again. Then I woke up with my heart racing.
I had just finished completing a 17 month ordeal. A true test of my faith. In the process of this test I had to die to many things. I was hurt by people I thought were my friends. I was disappointed by a governmental system that left me stupefied. I was surprised by God's sovereignty when I stood an believed what He told me. I saw God's absolute provision and protection. I saw God's faithfulness. I saw that I could completely and wholly rely on God to take care of my life. I also saw His faithful servants that allowed themselves to be used to help us on this journey.
What I learned that God has a process we go through and He determines when we truly become the head and not the tail. Many people presume they are the head. They treat others as less than themselves. If they help someone, they make sure they tell others about their goodwill. Something God told us not to do. In the process they loose their reward.
Joh 12:43 For they loved the praise of men more than the praise of God.
One thing I found out, people are not trophies or projects that we parade around to show others what we have done. They are people. God allows individuals to be humbled not only for their sake but for others as well. It is a test for everyone.
Mat 6:1 Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven.
Mat 6:2 Therefore when thou doest thine alms, do not sound a trumpet before thee, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.
Mat 6:3 But when thou doest alms, let not thy left hand know what thy right hand doeth:
Mat 6:4 That thine alms may be in secret: and thy Father which seeth in secret himself shall reward thee openly.
Alms are good works or help to the poor and needy.
It is always very good to sow into others when you have something to sow; whether it's money, time, prayer or things. There may be a time of lack in your life as God refines you and the seed you sow will produce right when you need it.
Sometime we go through trials that produce such anguish in our soul. It is a very tight place. You can't move until God brings you through. People cannot understand it around you. They don't understand why you can't do this thing or that. The only thing that gets you through the tight place is continuing to look unto God, praising Him, thanking Him and listening and obeying Him.
When you are in a tight place many people will give you contrary advice to what the Father is telling you. Listen to Him. This well meaning advice is part of the test to see whether you will obey the Father or listen to the voices. Sometimes it is better not to be around the other voices at all when you are in the press.
Deu 28:13 And the LORD shall make thee the head, and not the tail; and thou shalt be above only, and thou shalt not be beneath; if that thou hearken unto the commandments of the LORD thy God, which I command thee this day, to observe and to do them:
Deu 28:14 And thou shalt not go aside from any of the words which I command thee this day, to the right hand, or to the left, to go after other gods to serve them.
This scripture exemplifies my dream. We only get to be the head when we fully hearken and listen to the command the Lord gives us this day and to do them. This is the revelation. We must be able to hear Him give us instruction on a daily basis. Not just what is written in His word; but the command He puts into our heart.
If you are not walking in this place with the Lord and you want to be ask Him to help you press into His presence and to know Him in this way. If you ask Him, He will bring you through an amazing journey. Not always fun, but when you look back you will see His hand all the way through. This will produce eternal fruit in your life.
Consider all the people as special actors designed by God to play a role in your life. In a special training program custom designed for you to become a mature son of God. That you may walk in the fulness of God.
Eph 4:13 Till we all come in the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, unto a perfect man, unto the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ:
Jesus is our example, we are supposed to do the works He did and greater.
Eph 4:14 That we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive;
Eph 4:15 But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ:
We grow into being the head and not the tail. When God says we are finished being the tail, that's when we are finished.
I pray we can all become the Head He has called us to be.